A few months ago, I would let my food anxiety rob me of special moments with friends who care about me.
I’m glad to say that didn’t happen yesterday. I still struggled, but I didn’t let my anxiety keep me in my hiding place.
My beautiful friend is getting married in a year, and she invited me and another bridesmaid to join her for her first dress appointment at Alfred Angelo!
Catie looked beautiful in every dress! But they are secret so I can’t share them.
Before the appointment, we got dinner together at Chipotle. I went with my usual barbacoa salad loaded with veggies and salsa.
Normally, I’d bring my food scale and ask for each ingredient in separate containers so that I could weigh everything to the gram. Today, I did not. I eyeballed it and didn’t sweat it.
My coach is working with me on my food anxiety, and she “assigned” an untracked dessert for me to enjoy while I spent time with my girls.
I can think of a few reasons for this assignment:
- A week ago, I had a minor surgery to correct my breathing. I didn’t eat as much as I should have during recovery.
- I have been consistently dropping weight since my show about a month ago, and right now my goal is to get on the gain train!
- I need to enjoy life like a normal person and not worry about the macros.
Luckily, my friends are super supportive and also love dessert. After the dress appointment, we went to the Cheesecake Factory!
I had THIS ENTIRE SLICE of the Toasted S’mores Galore Cheesecake:
Confession: I was told to not look up the macros of this cheesecake. However, I am not perfect, and I tried to look it up this morning. It’s not on their nutrition facts listing, so I think that’s a sign that I shouldn’t have even tried!!!
Did this cheesecake put me over my calorie goal for the day? Yes.
Am I going to die, or gain 10lbs of fat overnight because of it? No.
Would I eat it again? ABSOLUTELY.